Ana Religion & Lifestyle

Thin Commandments

1) If you aren’t thin, you aren’t attractive
2) Being thin is more important than being healthy
3) You must but clotes, cut your hair, take laxatives, anything to make yourself look thinner
4) Thou shall not eat without feeling guilty
5) Thou shall not eat fattening food withoud punishing afterwards
6) Thou shall count calories and restrict intake accordingly
7) What the scale says is the most important thing
8) Losing weight is good, gaining weight is bad
9) You can never be to thin
10) Being thin and not eating are signs of true will power and succes.

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Why I starve myself

  • Because I can
  • Because I’m the hunger artist
  • Because I want to
  • Because if I can accomplish this, I can do anything!
  • Because off all the people in my life who die of jealousy when they see the way I look
  • Because it makes me feel brand new every day!
  • Because I just won’t quit
  • Because I have wanted to be this way forever
  • Because I don’t have any time to waste on food
  • Because I can do anything I put my mind to
  • Because I have the willpower
  • Because it’s my life
  • Because it’s my choice
  • Because of my next birthday
  • Because it’s me. And though I don’t advise it to anyone else; I’m too thin, and I don’t eat enough, and that’s me, and I love it!
  • Because I want to be skinny for summer

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Ana’s Creed

I believe in control, the only force mighty enough to bring onrder in the chaos that is my world.

I believe that I am the most vile, worthless an useless person ever have to existed on this planet, and that I am totally onworthy of anyone’s time and attention.

I believe in oughts, musts and shoulds, as unbreakable laws to determine my daily behaviour.

I believe in perfection and strive to attain it.

I believe in salvation trough starvation.

I believe in calorie counters as the inspired word of god, and memorise then accordingly.

I believe in bathroom scales as an indicator of my daily succeses and failures.

I believe in hell, cause sometimes I think I live in it.

I believe in a wholly black an withe world, the losing of weight, recrimination for sins, the alonegation of the body and a life ever fasting.

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Ana’s Laws

Thin is beauty; therefore I must be thin, and remain thin, If I wish to be loved. Food is my ultimate enemy. I may look, and I may smell, but I may not touch!

I must think about food every second of every minute of every hour of every day… and ways to avoid eating it.

I must weigh myself, first thing, every morning, and keep that number in mind throughout the remainder of that day. Should that number be greater than it was the day before, I must fast that entire day.

I shall not be tempted by the enemy (food), and I shall not give into temptation should it arise. Should I be in such a weakened state and I should cave, I will feel guilty and punish myself accordingly, for I have failed her.

I will be thin, at all costs. It is the most important thing; nothing else matters.

I will devote myself to Ana. She will be with me where ever I go, keeping me in line. No one else matters; she is the only one who cares about me and who understands me. I will honor Her and make Her proud

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Ana’s Psalm

Strict is my diet
I must nog want
It maketh me lie down at night hungry
It leadeth me past the confectioners
It trieth my will power
It leadeth me in the paths of alternation for my figure sake
Yeah, though I walk trough the aisles of the pastry department, I will buy no sweet rolls for they are fattening
The cakes and the pies, they tempt me
Before me is a table set with green beens and lettuce
I filleth my stomach with liquids
My day’s quota runneth over
Surely calorie and weight charts will follow me, all days of my life
And I will dwell in the fear of the scales forever

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Letters to and from Ana

Letter from Ana
Allow me to introduce myself. My name, or as I am called by so called “doctors”, is Anorexia. Anorexia Nervosa is my full name, but you may call me Ana. Hopefully we can become great partners. In the coming time, I will invest a lot of time in you, and I expect the same from you.
In the past you have heard all of your teachers and parents talk about you. You are “so mature”, “intelligent”, “14 going on 45”, and you possess “so much potential”. Where has that gotten you, may I ask? Absolutely no where! You are not perfect, you do not try hard enough, further more you waste your time on thinking and talking with friends and drawing! Such acts of indulgence shall not be allowed in the future.
Your friends do not understand you. They are not truthful. In the past, when the insecurity has quietly gnawed away at your mind, and you asked them, “Do I look….fat?” and they answered “Oh no, of course not” you knew they were lying! Only I tell the truth. Your parents, let’s not even go there! You know that they love you, and care for you, but part of that is just that they are your parents and are obligated to do so. I shall tell you a secret now: deep down inside themselves, they are disappointed with you. Their daughter, the one with so much potential, has turned into a fat, lazy, and undeserving girl.
But I am about to change all that.
I expect a lot from you. You are not allowed to eat much. It will start slowly:
decreasing of fat intake, reading the nutrition labels, cutting out junk food, fried food, etc. For a while, the exercise will be simple: some running, perhaps some crunches and some situps. Nothing too serious. Perhaps drop a few pounds, take a little off of that fat tub of a stomach. But it won’t be long before I tell you that it isn’t good enough.
I will expect you to drop your calorie intake and up your exercise. I will push you to the limit. You must take it because you cannot defy me! I am beginning to imbed myself into you. Pretty soon, I am with you always. I am there when you wake up in the morning and run to the scale. The numbers become both friend and enemy, and the frenzied thoughts pray for them to be lower than yesterday, last night, etc. You look into the mirror with dismay. You prod and poke at the fat that is there, and smile when you come across bone. I am there when you figure out the plan for the day: 400 calories, 2 hours exercise. I am the one figuring this out, because by now my thoughts and your thoughts are blurred together as one.
I follow you throughout the day. In school, when your mind wanders I give you something to think about. Recount the calories for the day. It’s too much. I fill your mind with thoughts of food, weight, calories, and things that are safe to think about. Because now, I am already inside of you. I am in your head, your heart, and your soul. The hunger pains you pretend not to feel is me, inside of you.
Pretty soon I am telling you not only what to do with food, but what to do ALL of the time. Smile and nod. Present yourself well. Suck in that fat stomach, dammit! God, you are such a fat cow!!!! When mealtimes come around I tell you what to do. I make a plate of lettuce seem like a feast fit for a king. Push the food around. Make it look like you’ve eaten something. No piece of anything…if you eat, all the control will be broken…do you WANT that?? To revert back to the fat COW you once were?? I force you to stare at magazine models. Those perfect skinned, white teethed, waifish models of perfection staring out at you from those glossy pages. I make you realize that you could never be them. You will always be fat and never will you be as beautiful as they are. When you look in the mirror, I will distort the image. I will show you obesity and hideousness. I will show you a sumo wrestler where in reality there is a starving child. But you must not know this, because if you knew the truth, you might start to eat again and our relationship would come crashing down.
Sometimes you will rebel. Hopefully not often though. You will recognize the small rebellious fiber left in your body and will venture down to the dark kitchen. The cupboard door will slowly open, creaking softly. Your eyes will move over the food that I have kept at a safe distance from you. You will find your hands reaching out, lethargically, like a nightmare, through the darkness to the box of crackers. You shove them in, mechanically, not really tasting but simply relishing in the fact that you are going against me. You reach for another box, then another, then another. Your stomach will become bloated and grotesque, but you will not stop yet. And all the time I am screaming at you to stop, you fat cow, you really have no self control, you are going to get fat.
When it is over you will cling to me again, ask me for advice because you really do not want to get fat. You broke a cardinal rule and ate, and now you want me back. I’ll force you into the bathroom, onto your knees, staring into the void of the toilet bowl. Your fingers will be inserted into your throat, and, not without a great deal of pain, your food binge will come up. Over and over this is to be repeated, until you spit up blood and water and you know it is all gone. When you stand up, you will feel dizzy. Don’t pass out. Stand up right now. You fat cow you deserve to be in pain!
Maybe the choice of getting rid of the guilt is different. Maybe I chose to make you take laxatives, where you sit on the toilet until the wee hours of the morning, feeling your insides cringe. Or perhaps I just make you hurt yourself, bang your head into the wall until you receive a throbbing headache. Cutting is also effective. I want you to see your blood, to see it fall down your arm, and in that split second you will realize you deserve whatever pain I give you. You are depressed, obsessed, in pain, hurting, reaching out but no one will listen? Who cares?!?!! You are deserving; you brought this upon yourself.
Oh, is this harsh? Do you not want this to happen to you? Am I unfair? I do do things that will help you. I make it possible for you to stop thinking of emotions that cause you stress. Thoughts of anger, sadness, desperation, and lonliness can cease because I take them away and fill your head with the methodic calorie counting. I take away your struggle to fit in with kids your age, the struggle of trying to please everyone as well. Because now, I am your only friend, and I am the only one you need to please.
I have a weak spot. But we must not tell anyone. If you decide to fight back, to reach out to someone and tell them about how I make you live, all hell will break lose. No one must find out, no one can crack this shell that I have covered you with. I have createdyou, this thin, perfect, achieving child. You are mine and mine alone. Without me, you are nothing. So do not fight back. When others comment, ignore them. Take it into stride, forget about them, forget about everyone that tries to take me away. I am your greatest asset, and I intend to keep it that way. Sincerely, Ana

Letter to Ana
Dear Ana,

I offer you my soul, my heart and my bodily functions. I give you all my earthly possessions.

I seek your wisdom, your faith and your feather weight. I pledge to obtain the ability to float, to lower my weight to the single digits, I pledge to stare into space, to fear food, and to see obese images in the mirror. I will worship you and pledge to be a faithful servant until death does us part.

If I cheat on you and procreate with Ronald McDonald, Dave Thomas, the colonel or that cute little dog. I will kneel over my toilet and thrust my fingers deep in my throat and pray for your forgiveness.

Please Ana, don’t give up on me. I’m so weak, I know, but only you with your strength inside me will I become a woman worthy of love and respect. I’m begging for you not to give up, I’m pleading with my shallow breathes and my pale skin. I bleed for you, suffer leg pains, headaches and fainting spells. My love for you makes me dizzy and confused I don’t know whether I’m coming or going. Men run when they see the love I have for you and never return. But they aren’t important to me all thats important is that you love me.

If you stay with me, I will worship you daily, I will run miles a day, come rain, snow, bitter cold or searing heat I will run from the pain and in fright. I will do 1,000 sit ups a day and lie to my family about what I eat and how I feel. I will stop weeping when I feel your warm arms embrace my shivering body. I will numb the hunger pains with razor blades and your strength.

Today, I renew our friendship and resolve to be faithful to you year long, life long. I begin each year with a 3 day fast in honor of you. If you give me the strength to fade away I will love you and worship you forever.

When I’m finally faded to nothing, when you’ve given me the gift of ending this torturous life. I will float on to the next world and be thin and beautiful payment for my undying love for you in this world.

Love Always, Worthless One

2,772 thoughts on “Ana Religion & Lifestyle

  1. OMG! This website needs to be banned. I’m going through these websites as part of my research. But seriously anorexia is a serious MENTAL ILLNESS. You all obviously need help. For the love of God no! For the love of yourself PLEASE STOP!!!

  2. I just saw the lifetime movie on this site and it does need to be pulled so many girls are dying because they have no idea how beautiful they really are..

    • Okay, so This page will not be pulled because it is a memorial to the owner, because she passed away. yes i understand that this is not the best. but remember it is their choice and you dont get a say in their choice. If you have an issue with this get off this page and continue on with your life. ALSO how did you find this page, you have to google certain things to find this, and that means that you were googleing stuff about eating disorders specifically anorexia. If you have an issue kindly leave the page with out commenting. Am i clear? Good

      • You are one selfish ass piece of sh*t who clearly has no consideration whatsoever for our children’s health, children who don’t have the necessary judgement to simply “leave the page”. And in case you wondered why I googled “certain things” I feel necessary to explain that a close friend of mine died from anorexia, a mental illness which was fed (ironically) by pages like this one. Since then I obsess over talking weak influençable and vulnerable people ( to the point where they let society make them believe that physique matters more than health ) out of such bullshit. As for the fact that this is supposed to be a “memorial”, I find it darkly ironic given all the self despise she expresses about herself, and I very much doubt that this is the way anyone deserves to be remembered.

        • You literally do not understand do you? I am here to help them. Yes, I know how terrible it is. I have the real disorder. I came here to help girls lose weight in a healthy weight. And this is memorable because L, the girl who wrote this is dead. She died of malnutrition.Calling people selfish ass pieces of shit will not change anything, just shows how immature you are. I get you are not too buoyant with your friend’s death. I am not so happy that many girls died this year from it and I am trying to not die myself. I just got out of the hospital for it and it opened up my eyes. Yes I still suffer from it but I am trying to get over it. Some girls here do not truly suffer from it and only have it by choice. Yet, some really do have it. They hear the voices after they eat, they yell at them calling them names like you kinda are doing. Before you call people names, think. “Will this even affect them?” Or how about this one (my favorite) “Can I say this to a loved one” Be nice sweetie and maybe people will listen. Have a good week love. Much love ❤

          • No, Sara, it is you who literally don’t understand.
            Your picture of the “perfect thin body” came from somewhere.

            We seek to both destroy those somewheres – like this site – so foolish young girls like yourself will no longer be told such horrible lies as are on this site; and to provide an opposing, and truthful view: ana is stupid to do to your body, malnutrition makes you weak and ugly, and starving only makes your body instinctively want to get fat.

            • Maybe your body instinctively wants to get fat. And you are fat. And you just want to be normal. I was always fat but I developed an ED when I was 10, because I started getting molested when I was nine and my mom stopped loving me, and she was really really sick and I couldn’t fall asleep without hugging her and telling her I loved her but she’d never say it back. I struggled with it for several years. And then I got a drug addiction and it went away when she died. And now it’s back, and I looked up anorexia because I was curious and this came up. But it makes me feel human, it gives me hope. I know just how bad for me it is. This site makes me feel less alone. Everyone that comes on here criticizing does it in the wrong way. Maybe try being nice? You all tell them they are how worthless they tell themselves they are already. It drives them deeper into whatever rut they are already in. If they are on here, even without an ED, they probably have a reason that you can’t understand. Maybe they don’t care if they die. Maybe they just want to feel good about themselves or their bodies for once. You don’t l know what people how through…

            • I am pretty bounded that I said “Trying to get over it.” Yeah, my idea of a perfect body did come from somewhere. The bullies. They told me what a “perfect” body is. I was only 9. They were in high school. What do you think happened? I just shrugged it off? No, their remarks repeated in my mind every time I ate something. I would purge and starve myself so I would be accepted. My own grandmother called me a pig and said I was fat. Just because some girls and guys tend to look up these things, not all of us do. I do understand where you are coming from with what you say, the only part I am not so buoyant about is the way you said it hunny. I know all the damaging things to come from this, why do you think I try and help girls and guys do it a healthy way; a way not harmful? I do not agree with most of these things. I just agree with some, not the harmful and messed up things. Please hunny, see what I am doing for others is good and helpful. Much love ❤

            • my idea of the perfect body did not just come from a website like this. it has been in my head. it comes from everywhere. the voice in your head, the perfect people on tv, magazines, society as a whole. people will develop this disorder with your without you banning these sites.
              you want to end eating disorders? change society first.

          • What should she have called em? Just “selfish women” instead? Would that be more mature? What do you call someone who tells someone else to stop trying to save people’s lives?

      • Ok,so. This page hasn’t been taken down BECAUSE wordpress does not find it offensive or dangerous enough to interfere with their free speech policy.

        It is not a “memorial” to L, the crazy little twit that starved herself to death.

        And you are a fucking idiot. Could you please hurry and die off like L so you can SHUT THE FUCK UP!?!

        • Wow, maybe you are one of the reasons some people come to these kinds of sites. Instead of being derogatory, try being scrupulous. Maybe people will start listening to you hunny. Now, I do not abhor on people but people like you push me to it. I have almost cussed someone out, but I will not go down to a vacuous person’s actions. Please, if you are going to tell someone to kill themselves, to do it in a scrupulous way. Thank you hun, much love sweetie ❤

          • Quit playing in the dictionary. Snot nosed little self rightous idiot. Looking up a word and using it properly are two very different things – as you have so egregiously demonstrated!

            • I’m sorry? I am using them right, I do not know where you got I was using any word incorrectly. I didn’t use the dictionary sweetie, just school knowledge. I like how you call me names to hurt me because unlike others, that makes me stronger. Unlike others, I like pain. Maybe try to not be empty minded, use positive information. Be more open minded and insult me better. 🙂 That would honestly be greatly respected. You can try baby girl, doubt you’ll succeed. Much love hunny ❤

            • If you ‘re just going to be a bully then please leave. Most of us know in some part of our head that what we are doing is messed up, but once you start down this path, like other people have said, it’s insanely hard to stop. You’re not helping anything by cussing and people and telling them to “hurry and die off”.

  3. Okay may I just say. I know what I’m doing on here. I am aware of what happens when you fully develop anorexia. We all are. We all know what we’re doing. If we wanted to stop we either could or couldn’t. Once you’ve started you can’t stop. It’s too hard. im sure the whole Ana community would agree with me. So if you don’t like what you see on this website you obviously don’t get how we feel about ourselves. So please just leave us alone…

  4. Hey everyone! My name is B. I’m 5’6 and 130 lbs give or take. My goal weight is to be 105. I feel fat and disgusting. I’m in college, and I began bingeing three months ago but my roommates caught on and now I feel like I can’t go anywhere to be sick. I have been rejecting food lately, but always give in when I’m hungry. If someone would like to be my ana buddy please reply. Add me on snap, we can share and help each other.

  5. Hello, I want someone to inspire me, but I have one problem, sorry, maybe more. The first is that I’m from Slovakia, and so I don’t know English so well. The next is that I cannot meet with my buddy, so if there is someone like this, my facebook is Saska Dronzekova.
    Sorry for my English.

  6. Can someone be my ana buddy, I’m 5ft and 82lbs if you have snapchat pls comment your username down below and I’ll add you (I forgot my snapchat user) I’m 12 so I kinda need someone similar to my age to be my ana buddy :L

  7. Just saying.. you do realize that being anorexic will never bring you that “perfect body, perfect teetch, perfect life”.. your body will deteriorate, your already beautiful boobs will go away, your already beautiful bum will go away, your already beautiful teeth will go away. Especially if binging, your stomach acid will errod your teeth an they can fall out.. your hair eventually falls out.. Your already beautiful life can an will be dramatically shortened an ended if you stay on the road of Anorexia, the ONLY place you can end up if you don’t STOP is DEATH.. so PLEASE take down this god awful website and help your self an tons of other people. You say you don’t condone self harming behavior yet that’s all this website is about. YOU ARE ALREADY BEAUTIFUL. NO ONE IS PERFECT.. there is no such thing as perfection..

  8. im 13 and 125 lbs…disgusiting yea…i know.. i need some support..i feel real alone…at this point in my life everything falling apart even my figure. I need a friend to motivate me and help me get through this disaster.
    sincerly,A lonely stoner

  9. OMG!! I love love love this site it’s just…truly perfect, flawles! Can’t believe I’ve had ana in my life for a year and 10 months and still didn’t get across this page! JS, thanx a lot, whoever you are. :)))

  10. I just want to say that you´re pretty in the way that you are… I think that anyone of you shouldn´t doing this. I know how is it.. But I recovered. I´m thankful for that because i start to eat healthy and start to be ok with myself. And now I´m happy, skinny and healthy. It´s all about you. It´s about direction which you choose. I hope that everyone of you do this with yourself. because it´s unbelievable good feel when you look to the mirror and you see pretty, skinny and healthy girl with a lots of friends who is ok with herself and love her life and her body.

    • Okay so I clicked on the link and guess what? The site had a section of the tips on here and in the exact same order. I’ve also seen those tips, in the same order, on another pro ana site. Interesting huh?

      • So you noticed ana retards the ability to actually think?
        Perhaps this one is not too far gone to realize the idiocy of ana and find her way back to the world of the living!

  11. Is there a kik group for the people who visit this website? I’m in desperate need of ana friends. My kik is alexnervosa and I’m 14.

  12. Well, you could start by just not drinking liquids (except water) for a week and if you wanna go up a step and stop eating something else and mov up from there

    • No, they have nothing else.

      They refuse to take positive action to actually improve themselves, like education or skill building.

      They like the drama. Makes them feel important, and the hiding lets them feel like they’ve outsmarted everyone. Sudden cheap self esteem, with secret online friends who tell you ana is good.

      So yeah, ana IS the lamest fuckin thing ever to base your self esteem, health, happiness and future upon, but these are mostly loser social misfit whiners without the basic personal resources to evaluate their situation rationally and formulate a plan for personal success or the backbone (maybe I should say mental muscle,lol!) to do the hard day to day and hour to hour work it takes to build a good life.

  13. This website NEEDS to br banned!Seriously, anorexia is a MENTAL DISORDER.It can literally kill you.Want to drop a few pounds?Start eating healthy (maybe add some protein) and exercise regularly and moderately.I promise you see your body turning healthy and strong.
    But starving yourself is not the way out.It will only fuck up your metabolism.Being skinny until you see your own ribs is NOT healthy.

  14. I pray for everyone who is going through this. I can see how this site can be a support group for those who are suffering, but the tips and advice are so harmful and self-destructive that it wouldn’t help anyone. None of this is safe. I encourage people to reach out and get help. Recovery can be so beneficial.

  15. Hi, girls! Please don’t ignore me! I’m news here and I really need help! But, I can to help your too, because I live with Ana for 2 years…

  16. I’m desperate for a strict Ana coach. I’m 17 years old, 5’6 and I weigh about 120 lbs. I’m used to binge eating and I want that to stop and my goal weight is 105 lbs. Please help, I made a new snapchat account. My username is anamooreee, it will pop up as Ana Moore.

    • I physically can’t workout, so I have to deal with this all by a diet and other ways to lose weight without excercise.

      • Why can’t you work out?

        Exercise doesn’t need to be strenuous.
        All movement uses energy and burns calories.

        How fat are you, anyway?

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